Sunday, October 28, 2012

Traveller's mind!

Whenever I cross these roads, a sudden happiness is felt. Whenever I cross the borders, I feel relieved. Whenever these mountains challenge my potentials, their confidence is always conquered. When I look at the deep waters of the sea, they fill me with a flow of high energy. I feel like a queen who has lived like a King of all times. But when this traveller in me has other roles, they are followed by an unwanted confusion. A wonderer like me feels supressed, and these delightful moments turn into compulsions. Its hard for others to see how a perfectionist criticises her approach, but life doesn't work parallel to ego conflicts. Whenever its difficult to know the difference between ego driven goals, and ur aptitude based aims, one must remember to ask her real self, the soul, to guide in life. The path choosen won't take you to a wrong turn. This is a traveller and a wonderer in me, who was although distracted for a long time but now the path seems clear.


Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Old Age delight!

Its winter again, and I'm still waiting... just the same as always... and the feeling of oneness with you remains forever deep inside... those breathless nights... those momentous days... ever so smiling faces... and the clear memories of your eyes and my lips, almost about to say something, and then a moment so frozen... is somehow like this feeling of chilled winter morning.
I've never been alone these years... friends seem to be a real good support system. But your memories my love, the moments of togetherness... are still alive in my heart. So fresh... so real... and you are still hidden somewhere unknown. I'm waiting... and will always wait... for your soul is all mine now, and love has no boundaries left...


Thursday, October 11, 2012

Dastak...

It was long back, a school girl in me, while thinking about her dream world wrote something. She was so curious to see her dreams come true, and to live her life the way she wants, with all that love and adulation, which were like a fairy tale to her... And about 7 years from then... Now that school girl has grown up, and has taken a very different way of life altogether, something completely out of her imagination. But she is happy, as she is living her dreams, and in her dreams there's still those clouds of uneasiness to see the so much desirable soul, which has made her so curious, and extremely passionate to meet...
The lines so quoted show her dilemma, and her similar situation even after a long time gap, but with new situations and new anxieties.

"Mere sapno ke jhrokhe mein chaand aaya tha,
meine usse aapni palko pe sajaya tha
din raat sapno mein dubbi rehti,
par ek baar bhi ye na kehti
shayad mere dil mein usne ghar banaya tha
jis mein vo kabhi rehne aaya tha...

par kahan hai vo chaand?
aur kahan hai vo chandni?!
jisne mujhe ye swapn salona dikhaya tha
mere dil ke armano ka deep jalaya tha.

shabnami hotho pe vo naam kaise aaye
kia batau
kab kahan ye dil tujh mein kho jaye
iss bandhan se e dil mere, kaise bacha jaye
dhadkano mein basne wale ye dil tujhe kaise bhulaye!

kaliyon ke sundr chaman mein phool khile the
baharon mein iss dil ke dwaar khulle the.
isse mein aapna kasoor kaise jaanu
chandni ko chanda se alag kaise maanu.

mere dil ko teri ek dastak ne neend se jagaya tha
mere sapno ke jhrokhe mein chaand aaya tha... "

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Mumma n Me

When I saw the bird on 'the window of my room', I saw her searching for her eggs.. i saw her tensed, and worried... and wanting at least someone to help her, give an answer to her dilemma. These are the words when I imagined those orphan souls on my roof top (the eggs)... and the mother ( the bird) who was so determined to find them, but could not accept someone else's touch...

"I see your tears mumma, I see you worried
I see that you miss me so much, I see you looking for me
Though I'm alright, I'm still missing you... I see that you too love me forever <3

I see the tears in my eyes, and see you mumma worried
I see that you too are uneasy, I see how well you convinced her
Though you were in deep trouble, I see you as very responsible.

Don't worry for the separation is a matter of time
I know you are brave enough, I know you see your glimpse in me
For I know you are my heart and soul."