Just like a typical girl... while I was wondering about being in Love, and living my life happily ever after, one of my friends shook me of my day dreams and asked me to accompany her for a movie. Ting Tong!... "A movie?" I asked, and her sweet smiling face looked at me, and all that I could see was a hope of affirmation. Knowing that I hate going out for movies, I still agreed to go along. Somethings are destined I believe...
She already knew my state of mind, and so was I, very depressed like a rotten fish. Though we were in the hall, I was still lost in my daydreams. Ah! yes... the guess is probably right. It was a guy. One who came in my life and I couldn't resist his charm.
The movie started. It was about three friends living together and having fun all the time. The only thing they lacked was love, and so were looking forward to falling in love one day. somehow they met their girls, and moved on with a very happy relationship. But as their relationship grew, they realized how they've created a problem for themselves. They were like carefree animals at some time, but now have turned into puppets. I agree the movie was way too negative about being in a relationship, for me its never the same... though I could realize where my life was taking me. It was as if I woke up from deep sleep, rubbed my eyes, and looked at her face... I laughed out aloud and realized what I did wasn't my true self. 'The Girl Instinct!' something which made me behave like the typical Ashley girl. I now realize that life can never be like a fairy tale: 'Happily ever after'.
So pondering upon a dream and keep thinking about it is completely useless, because life will bring what it has for you eventually. Being your own self matters, and one who can't accept you in your reality, doesn't deserve you. People say love makes you blind, but I'd say it makes you completely senseless. After having seen the movie, I realized how crazy I was for him. But one can't always live in dreams, one day or the other reality has to be faced. So its better if not labelled a 'Bitch!' Being in a relationship which doesn't allow one to be thyself is next to hell.
Liking someone, being in a relationship with him, and living the entire lifetime with him are entirely different things, and with every step ahead, the complexity is bound to increase. One who understands this complexity may reach the goal, others might just wander. "Sometimes its a form of love to talk to someone that you've nothing in common with and still be fascinated about their presence." says David Byrne. I too discovered the amount of love I carry deep within me, the softness of loving and belonging to someone who would appreciate my presence and compliment me for it throughout his life. I realized the unheard desires within me, the amount of passion and vigor that I've, and in all the loveable and loving Me... through my encounter with him. Though it'd just be a teenage madness for someone... its still the beginning of new Me, and the credit goes to him =)
Loads of Love to you wherever you are and will be... and thanks for unknowingly doing what means a lot... now and ever, forever <3
She already knew my state of mind, and so was I, very depressed like a rotten fish. Though we were in the hall, I was still lost in my daydreams. Ah! yes... the guess is probably right. It was a guy. One who came in my life and I couldn't resist his charm.
The movie started. It was about three friends living together and having fun all the time. The only thing they lacked was love, and so were looking forward to falling in love one day. somehow they met their girls, and moved on with a very happy relationship. But as their relationship grew, they realized how they've created a problem for themselves. They were like carefree animals at some time, but now have turned into puppets. I agree the movie was way too negative about being in a relationship, for me its never the same... though I could realize where my life was taking me. It was as if I woke up from deep sleep, rubbed my eyes, and looked at her face... I laughed out aloud and realized what I did wasn't my true self. 'The Girl Instinct!' something which made me behave like the typical Ashley girl. I now realize that life can never be like a fairy tale: 'Happily ever after'.
So pondering upon a dream and keep thinking about it is completely useless, because life will bring what it has for you eventually. Being your own self matters, and one who can't accept you in your reality, doesn't deserve you. People say love makes you blind, but I'd say it makes you completely senseless. After having seen the movie, I realized how crazy I was for him. But one can't always live in dreams, one day or the other reality has to be faced. So its better if not labelled a 'Bitch!' Being in a relationship which doesn't allow one to be thyself is next to hell.
Liking someone, being in a relationship with him, and living the entire lifetime with him are entirely different things, and with every step ahead, the complexity is bound to increase. One who understands this complexity may reach the goal, others might just wander. "Sometimes its a form of love to talk to someone that you've nothing in common with and still be fascinated about their presence." says David Byrne. I too discovered the amount of love I carry deep within me, the softness of loving and belonging to someone who would appreciate my presence and compliment me for it throughout his life. I realized the unheard desires within me, the amount of passion and vigor that I've, and in all the loveable and loving Me... through my encounter with him. Though it'd just be a teenage madness for someone... its still the beginning of new Me, and the credit goes to him =)
Loads of Love to you wherever you are and will be... and thanks for unknowingly doing what means a lot... now and ever, forever <3
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